This is my life

I am sitting in the waiting room at the NCP test centre in Fonthill. Some people stand at the window and watch their cars progress up the test lane. I sit as far back as I can. I don't want to witness the mechanic finding out whats wrong with it.

Broken tail light, will they fail me on that, problem with the cooling system which I have spent a fortune on and still not right, will they find that. Will they write the car off? Bit of torture this early on Saturday morning. Ok angels, see what ye can do. A sausage sandwich would be nice now.

Today I will try and catch up with some housework, tidy my bedroom, put away summer clothes.
It is very definately autumn now, leaves are changing colour rapidly this is a great chance for photographers to get out and about and get some nice shots. There is something about the light in autumn, it is softer and kinder than summer light.

Back home now from the NCT test centre. The car failed on 4 things. Low brake oil, broken tail light, two broken lights nearside and other side. I have to fix them and bring it back and they will check it, no cost. Not so bad I guess.

Called into Boots on the way home to get shower cream and shampoo and other bathroom essentials, I shopped wisely and got a pile of stuff for €28 which should keep us clean for another month.

I have been troubled and upset about something over the last day or so, the details I cannot go into here and leaving Boots this morning, having mulled it over in my mind and decided to make a clean break. I sat into the car, which had been cleared out for the NCT and at the corner of my eye I saw a picture of St Therese down in the pocket of the door, it had not been there earlier, I picked it up and read the lines underneath which were a quote from St Therese, "Love is all that matters, that's all I have to say". The tears spilled out of my eyes and I had a good cry, what it meant I don't know. Maybe it is just a coincidence, but there have been too many of them of late.

The song I am going to learn, This is my life I think it just about sums it up for me.

Funny how a lonely day, can make a person say:
What good is my life
Funny how a breaking heart, can make me start to say:
What good is my life
Funny how I often seem, to think I'll find never another dream
In my life
Till I look around and see, this great big world is part of me
And my life
This is my life
Today, tomorrow, love will come and find me
But that's the way that I was born to be
This is me
This is me

This is my life
And I don't give a damn for lost emotions
I've such a lot of love I've got to give
Let me live
Let me live

Sometime when I feel afraid, I think of what a mess I've made

Of my life
Crying over my mistakes, forgetting all the breaks I've had
In my life
I was put on earth to be, a part of this great world is me
And my life
Guess I'll just add up the score, and count the things I'm grateful for
In my life
This Is my life
Today, tomorrow, love will come and find me
But that's the way that I was born to be
This is me
This is me

This is my life
And I don't give a damn for lost emotions
I've such a lot of love I've got to give
Let me live
Let me live

This is my life
This is my life
This is my life